This is my life.
This is the blood that runs through my veins.
Maybe you’ll see what I need.
June 2013
11 posts
Well I am looking for freedom and to find it may take everything I have…
Well life hasn’t been very kind to me lately….
She stopped talking to me ….
Even though I thought we were important to one another.
Guess I was wrong, guess I was misguided.
Maybe I was ment to walk this path alone?
” —They say they only give you what you can handle, well guess what Im not handling this and then you go and throw a funerral on top of it all. Thanks so fucking much…” —
I care for you so much.
And you have no idea that I do.” —
You’re hurt and scared cause I didnt tell you I was in hospital…
But you don’t want a boyfriend.” —
why am I the one left sitting hurt?” —
I wish it would all stop.
I wish I knew where I stood with you.
I wish I could be who you want me to be.” —
May 2013
32 posts
So today I realised that you have pushed me away and we will never be as close as what we were….. or what I thought we were.
And I’m sad because my heart says….
That’s ok, you were never as special as I thought you were. You’re just a very good con artist.
” —Why can’t you see I’m fighting really hard to get back to you all?
Why can’t you see that I never wanted this for you?
Why can’t you see how much I care for you?
Why can’t you see the pain I’m carrying?
Why can’t you see the love I clearly had for you?” —
I hope nothing changes…. She brings light to even the darkest parts of my soul…” —
At what point did we become ships in the night?
And why do you think that this is ok?
Why do you think it doesn’t hurt?” —
As much as I need to be near her.
I will not be that person.
But I have already lost my heart.” —
Meet me. - Check
Get to know me. - Check
Learn my past. - Check
Break me down. - Check
Push me over the edge. - Check
Put me away. - Check
Go out and live like nothing ever happened. - Check
Seems like everything is the way it should have been. And you’re telling me the clock isn’t running out of time?
So this is how it goes,
I fall.
You say you’ll be there.
I try to do what is right.
You leave anyway.
This is how it is.
And how it will always be
Another day, another life decision to regret.
Another person, another memory to forget.
Another reason, another choice taken away from me.
” —I could tell you everything about my past and my present…
And you still wouldn’t know the real me…
” —Cause I know you’re not going to be there to catch me.
And that’s fine cause I’m an adult.
But it would be nice if someone showed me they cared for once without me asking for it….” —
April 2013
13 posts
Just seriously….
Fuck my life…” —
Needs to decide what is worth more
Your love, or hers?
You back away from who I am…
She accepts who I am…
You think I need to change…
She likes me for me…
So what is it I really have to change?
” —How many times must I show you my heart?
How many times will you make me bleed for you?
How many times should I keep coming back for more?” —
That is all I am asking for…
Is that to much to give?
For someone like me?” —